Today, I was thinking about what it is that I want with you and from you; for you, for us…
I want to be part of your life in a real way. When you’re working well into the night on a project, charts, or something else, I want to bring you your favorite glass of Avion. After, I want to watch you work while I read or study until I can barely keep my eyes open. And in the wee hours of the morning, when I feel you crawl into bed, I want to wrap myself around you so that you’ll always fall asleep feeling loved and cared for.
When the sun rises, I want to wake up with you. And when I sense your frustration with the boys because they aren’t cooperating, I want to be the one who steps in, tends to them, makes their breakfast and school lunches, while you take a few minutes to yourself to gather your flustered thoughts before you drive them to school and head in to your work day.
In the middle of the afternoon, when you text me saying you’re having a rough day, I want to surprise you by dropping in unexpectedly to offer you some encouragement, affection, and understanding so that you know you aren’t alone, even when you feel like you are.
On the nights that we are lucky enough to have some time to ourselves, I want to have a quiet dinner with you to catch up on all the details of life that we haven’t had time to discuss yet. I want to touch your hand across the table when you talk and hold on to every word you say.
Before we fall asleep at night, I want to memorize your face with my hands and kiss you goodnight as if it was going to be the last time we ever spent a night together.
I want to be there for you in all the in-between times. To nurture you, to love you through difficulty, to prop you up when you’re feeling less than strong, to grieve with you when the hard times come, and to laugh with you when happiness abounds.
I long to grow old with you. To tell you when you are no longer feeling young nor vibrant, how my heart still skips a beat every time I look at you and how lucky I am that I belong to you and that you belong to me.
I just want to be a part of your life in a way that matters.